PC1323 is finally over! So that's a module down from the finals! I'm going to start intense mugging tomorrow. I need to, anyway. I love the song, Stranger. Actually I love Secondhand Serenade. Got back our landscape project and its disappointing and I can tell buf is really upset. Argh looks like I have to S/U it already.

Ter got back his pink IC today! Congrats!

Time to hit the bed to make up for the loss of sleep the past few days!

And all these thoughts are leaving you tonight.

I realised some friendships are closer in some semesters. And I realised also, that this is not only happening to me but to few others as well. oh well. I think I should actually stop gossiping and bitching so much in school. But these are some of the things in my life that is keeping me sane. Finals are coming; I should get myself prepped up for it. Only 4 papers this semester, and I am really thankful for the non-examinable module though we are still working on the 40% project due next week and there's like another test in the last week of school:( I'm busy paraphrasing all my sentences etc. because there's a stupid program called turn it in which condemns plagarism. ARGH. its irritating but I'm doing it because I really dont feel like starting on my revision. I think I'm just trying to find excuses for myself, to run away from the heap pile of work I have:( and its this time of the sem again, when I cant wait for 1st dec to come!

Okay I just need to face the reality and start my revision going soon.
Haha so much for this inspiring thought because I am most likely going to pon tmr's make up lecture at a freaking 9am. I feel like a joke.

______'s been pissing me off. Big time and its kind of turning me (and some others) too. Eew.

Actually honestly, I feel like school work is killing me so school is actually NOT fine at all. To me at least it isnt. But anyway, I would still very much like to get through everything decently and I will not let anything get me down. Lets feel the urgency!

This post feels funnay. Pardon me as I feel like I'm actually talking to myself. Hahaha.

SIGH I'm really quite worried for the stupid landscape project due next tues. because personally I feel its still not up to standard but there's not much time left and everyone else has so much work to do :( you know what, I think I'm not quite cut out for projects. Stupid phy project which is of a damn 40% due in 2 weeks time is killing me too. Our 1st draft is somewhere in the thin air, nowhere to be seen. Not to forget, the researching work has been a bitch too. Great.

I hate shabby work. I want to watch High School Musical. I want to go swimming. I need to exercise. I want to eat good food. I want to go town. I want to get these shit projects over. I want to have more time. I need to start my revision.

Mum's off to Malaysia, again:( for a day's tour with my aunt's family. So I have to prepare dinner for Lina tmr. Hope she'll like her food:) She's a cute monster.

Its finally all over for now, though disgustingly I still have another phy test coming up on monday. I really miss life in year 1. Life is tough for us now and I just hope I'll have enough energy to deal with the next 6 weeks or so before the finals and holidays are here. HATE SCHOOL. Its been a month since I can sleep in without worries and not having to wake up to my alarm and there's many many things I havent done in ages as well. I'm not hoping much for my grades this sem and just pray hard I'll do decent. SIGH this is scary:(

Its my birthday and I'm feeling ______.

But still, I still want to thank everyone for their well wishes. I did feel loved. And ter is just... way beyond..... a cup of saturated sugar solution. I can never ever match up. Haha.

I hope 9th oct comes like now. Besides friends and loved ones, everything else in my life has plunged deep down to the core. Honestly I do not enjoy doing all these shit at all. It just too much for me to take it, and I'm sure everyone else will agree to this too. Today we were chatting and Nad told me her schedule for the next few weeks to come, needless to say, it's really gonna be mind gruelling for her to handle all these work. OMG I really need a break. A good long break :(

Hello world. Havent blog in ages; so much have happened during this time but I actually dont know where and how to start. Anyway, Ter was gone in thailand and now he's back, sm came and left. I was busy and sadly still busy with school:( This recess week felt worse than any other school break with so many mid term tests and projects and reports to do:( Meetups with friends were compromised so much even though I really wanted to meet them. These 5 weeks without ter made me learnt a lot about myself, both good and bad ways I suppose. Okay I dont know what else to say anymore so I'm going to try hit the books and hopefully try to get something by tonight.

I dont know when was the last time I actually cried because I'm feeling damn upset. Cause right now I'm and I dont know how I can stop tears from flowing down my cheeks. The moment I stepped home, my mum got agitated over my messy room. Comments here and there and finally she said, 'free only, sleep'. And that started it all. Of course I rebutted but the more I did, my voice became shakier and I couldnt control my tears. I actually told her if she thinks studying's that easy, I will be happy to et her take over my place. Then I went to shower and thought through a whole lot. Seriously I'm feeling damn hurt, even till now. You know I had a really really tiring day in school today. I really dont know why I'm doing all these for. Why am I studying hard so I can continue with my teaching award, so I can graduate with a decent honours for a better future? Why do I even make an effort to force myself out of my bed every saturday and sunday so that I can earn my own pocket money and not spending a single cent of yours? But when I'm napping cause I'm tired from studying, you see me as loafing around. Perhaps if all these happened on a normal school day I wouldnt be feeling so emotional and upset and I may even joke about it cause I really dont think this is what I deserve after standing for almost 7 hours non stop in the damn lab today. I'm so mentally exhausted; I was really just looking forward to some peace at home but no. Thanks a lot mum. You totally made my day, though there's not much left of it.

Okay I have stopped tearing, finally. I'm so tired, both mentally and physically.