back home not long ago from supper and catching up :)

spent the afternoon at VJ with angjinglin, reminiscing the past and everything. its weird how all the different scenes flashed past my mind so vividly suddenly, especially when we were walking amongst the year1s. but still, though the feeling and environment is the same, all the faces have changed. and we met limsiewmee outside the canteen, in case you are wondering, she's my naggy bio tutor :) i think its really a great feeling to be remembered by the canteen vendors, like finally some familiar faces:) despite the fun reminiscence, it still feels weird to be a year3 now.

off to town to window shop and catch up even more before something really shocking happened and kinda spoilt our day. until now, its so unbelievable.

then it was a mad rush to tuition and finally supper with the army boy:) i think i'm dozing off any minute soon, night.

its been almost a month since my last driving lesson. well, it turned out to be better than what i have expected. but even so, i think i really did disappoint the instructor who's like super nice and patient. okay in short he's just the best instructor i ever had. so the feeling of guilt was kinda overwhelming me by the end of the lesson. i really need to be less lazy for the month of July.

class was alright today, quite peaceful actually :)
YAY tmr's finally the long-awaited FRIDAY. its finally here. so it'll be catching up with miss Jinglin, tuition and hopefully supper! what a hectic weekend,which pales in comparison with my mundane weekdays. its good because it makes me appreciate the weekends more.

haha i better go, its getting a little incoherent in here.

An Overdose of your shadow

YAY almost through half the week, which means the weekend is looming near. i really cant wait for it to be here :)

went for a great swim today because the sun was perfect. i'm glad i did because now i dont feel so guilty when stuffing my face. this is horrible but i'm craving for the cheese prata which i ate for dinner/supper last night.

okay so its morning jog with the mom and gym with sm tmr. sounds crazy but i think i'm gonna do it (hopefully).

I think time really does wonders. But of course, you need a satisfying heart-to-heart talk/confession with a closed one :) At least I have learnt not to worry about things until they come.

cant believe the weekend's almost over in a blink of the eye, and then it'll be another mundane and routine week ahead before the next weekend is here again :( so meanwhile the weekdays are going to feel like years againnn.

This, the realest thing I know :)
A pantomime indeed.

havent laugh so hard in such a long time with the mahjong khaki yesterday:) it seemed like a playback of the past, before the army boys enlisted. one whole day of mahjong starting with the always-late-or-maybe-not-turning-up-at-all breakfasts, Roy's place, pizza for lunch, back to mahjong and definitely healthy snackings in between. we were just recalling the past during lunch and wonder when will the next time be. we realised it'll probably be never, well, not when the boys are so caught up in their army lives or when sm is not in singapore anymore :( this is so saddening rahhhh and i think i'm already missing those times.

just when i feel everything has just fallen into place ever since A's over these few months, we are going to undergo another transition when the girls go back to studying in august. wonder how life will be like, and if the weekend meetups will actually be realised.

okay i shall stop being so sullen and look forward to Astons Specialities with the company after work at night. haha see its FOOD again.

i think i'm stil being unfair. i really gotta snap out of it, like how i managed to a few months back. i dont know why is it coming back all over again. nomore nomore nomore, please.

what is this feeling really about.



here's a EMO photo of my dog, haha totally irrelevant i know.
she's the love <3

slept at an unearthly hour this morning because i was talking (and gossiping) with vera online last night. it was an interesting chat and funny at times too. okay maybe just QUITE AH QUITE. omg cant believe we said it at the same time (:

yesterday was spent with the usuals at Roy's place. as usual, the company's great BUT food was sinful. okay maybe not, its just dinner at chompchomp, tooth-hole fillers like cream puff, cheesecake, chocolates, kettle chips and a multi-flavoured delicious cake from raffles hotel to end off the menu. i think i just gained another 300 calories from all the junk i ate yesterday, how horrifying. so we have decided to gym more next week and i hope we really can. anyway last night just kinda reminded of the times in Bintan, the people, the fun and the fabulous memories :D

But, despite all the fun, there was still an emo rain last night.

talk with the long-lost-special friend last night was, comforting. its been long, but it stil feels great to catch up about our so-interesting lives haha. i miss my special telepathic friend already :(

i cant believe i'm going to have a third chompchomp session again this week. i really hope i can jog like shit before tuition tmr morningggggg

today is the fun, with celest the little kid and juc the big kid hahaha. other than the fun, i realise how tough it is to actually bring a kid out, not to mention being a real parent in the future. and our icecream sessions, fatfestttttttt. i should stop eating so much and i barely exercised this week.





thn it was tuition which is a job i think i'm dreading more and more day by day.

okay this is quite a weird post, just like what i'm feeling.

you got what it takes to set me free

i love attending weddings :) its just so blissful to witness the ceremonial union of 2 people much in love. the entire dinner was great, especially the food and the touching atmosphere. what touched me most was the video playback of the morning tea ceremony, when the couple teared while the mum was giving her best wishes and bid her only daughter goodbye. i was just thinking, in a few years time as we approach nearer to the marriageable age, we will be attending more weddings of our friends. its quite exciting to just daydream about it and i realise i'm actually quite looking forward to my own wedding. wonder how it will turn out to be, but no, dont get me wrong, i'm not desperate to marry off, well at least not yet. hahaha okay i'm probably thinking way too much but still, i guess its every girl's wish to hold such a glorious and memorable wedding :)



i was just saying i should start enjoying the tuition classes, but sadly, i felt so shitty during class last night.

kind of detest the heavy feeling that i get whenever i visit my aunt in the hospital. really hope she can recover completely soon and not get hospitalised so often as if its her second home :(

on a happier thought, i'll be attending Ray's wedding dinner later :) i'm feeling quite excited about it i have no idea why. okay i'll update this soon again. till then :)

sleepless nights and bus rides home have always left me pondering.
so last night i was just thinking about all that had happened this past 6months ever since A's ended. and when i look back and think about the fun and freedom we had, especially the bintan trip after prom, i cant help but hope we can all go back in time to better appreciate what we had back then. i used to appreciate things only when i look back into the past and because of all the looking back, i have finally learnt to treasure the people and situations around me when things are nearing the end, but sadly not right from the start.

Isaac Melvin Matthew Bryan and Roy - my favourite boys.
i dont know why, this sec2 math class which i took up only 2months ago has become my favourite class currently. all these times, lessons with them have always been fun with all their jokesand my notsofunny jokes or so they claim. i guess i really feel very comfortable teaching, connecting and even joking with them. and because of that i feel more like their friend rather than their teacher. they can be irritating at times when all of them gang up to swipe me but stil its not hard to feel their respect for me when teaching gets serious. subconsciously, i realise classes with the 5 of them will never be the same if anyone is not around. but recently, Roy has left this class for good. i dont know the reason but obviously as his tutor, i feel lousy. so yesterday, i broke the news to them and they all felt the class was much quieter than usual and the atmosphere was, well just a little emo. haha and i never knew guys can be so sentimental.

you know sometimes i really wonder how amazing i have past these 6months without doing anything much. now that uni is starting in august, i stil dont know how i should be feeling. i know i should be excited because i'm finally going back to school after these 6 months of work, but i got a feeling i'm actually beginning to dread school already. i was just imagining days piled up with school work, no more slacking shopping playing or even social life and the most drastic change, no more tuition. in 2 months or so, i will already be back in school and i will have to decide which classes i need to give up at the tuition place. i stil remember dreading tuition for some classes (and now stil haha!) and its so sad to know i wont be able to feel this way even if i want to in 2 months time :( so i am already starting to enjoy my lessons while time stil allows.

changes changes changes. Life's full of them and i have been through quite some myself, i'm still against and fear the idea of changing. though i dread changes, i guess its good in the way how it allows me to learn to have a clearer perspective of things and to treasure what we have in store for us.

do you stil remember the dreams i used to have?

hello friends, so this is the flea market selling accessories for girls this coming saturday. i'm doing stella and chienwei a favour and hope those who can, go down and support them. thanks so much:) okay you can go to http://boutons.blogspot.com for more information.

gym was crazy today, i'm so freaking tired now.

and you were my air, my love, my friend.

jing's studio wu dance musical at raffles hotel last night with ter. it was good i should say, well at least a different experience from band concerts. hope jing can come back soon so that she can update me about stuff :)


with stella at the jubilee hall :)

and after that we headed to new cathay to meet up with the rest. another fat fest at benandjerry's and gluttons' bay till like 1. it suddenly occurred to me that we were there just a year ago with some of the current year2s at around 3am after Majestia XXI and xmens. oh my time really flies man, till now it stil doesnt feel as if a year has passed though lots have happened. you know, i really miss the company, how fun. okay back to yesterday, haha i'm beginning to realise we havent been doing much during meetups,except to stuff our faces with absolutely sinful food. we chatted about the usual, erm army stuff. so much so that i think sm and i are already pro with all the army terms and maybe how screwed up the system is haha.

i guess the next weekend will be a busy one as well, with stella's flea market, philwinds concert, ray's wedding dinner and whatsmore to come :)

and YAY my sister is finally back tmr! cant wait.

juvenalchan has just left for her malaysia trip with her schoolmates and the house seems to be alot quieter without her around, in a bad way of course. so for the next few days there wont be chit-chatting, gossips or even singing before bedtime, you know the crazy things sisters do together. my mom and i actually baked brownies for her this morning, hopefully to help curb her hunger during her train ride there haha. i'll miss her:)

i'm going for a swim later before my class tonight, but the weather doesnt seem too optimistic. and maybe touhua dumplings with ter tonight. YAY.