i hate studying for goodness sake.
i hate exams (which is looming near) even more.
i wish ter can have nights out so that i can go supper with him everyday.
i'm so envious of the school kids (those not having O's or A's of course); i want to have my holidays now too ):

But, why cant I just be contented with what I have?

sometimes i really wonder just how do i find the time to blog so frequently when i'm always complaining to be so busy. Hmm, report's done and this time round its pretty manageable. maybe cause there arent millions of data to tabulate (unlike last week's, which was so disgusting punching all the stupid non-whole numbers in my calculator and comp) this time round; good i suppose and i should really thank collen-the-noob for sending me her's for reference.

i'm not done with my readings for socio tmr yet but i'm exhausted. oh lord, just let me get over this entire week quickly.

i shall attend school regularly and not like what i'm doing right now in front of this screen.
anyways, the weekend was fabulous (yet again) just rotting away at east coast and lagoon. we ate so much, really. okay let me try to recall: 2 beef kwaytiao, 1 wanton mee, chicken wings and drinks. hmm thats just for dinner, for supper(which is like 3-4 hours after that), we wanted to have prata, but we ended up at Blk85 for 2 bakchormee, fried oysters and drinks. What pigs are we!

i dont know why i chose to skip school again today; i think its the travelling that puts me off. different friends have been consistently skipping different lectures, which makes us not see each other for quite some time haha! no wonder they said its all so independent in uni, since we have different tutorial slots as well. i realised, schooling at this age is no longer as fun as before. no more innocent minds, no more truly sincere people, more hypocrites and backstabbers, the reality of the workforce.

No wonder my mum always say schooling times're still the best.

school's sapping up all my energy, really. so much so i need to have naps everyday when i'm home, even after like 3 hours in school. like today, i attempted watching john yip's webcast for my unattended lecture and i cant believe i just dozed off like that in front of my laptop. haha somehow, i found myself waking up on my bed and by then, it was already dinner time. my attempt to do work was instead, replaced by shopping with mum after school and sleeping like a pig when i want to start work. great.

its so boring; i have been blogging about nothing else except school. i was thinking although school can be really a chore and tiring, i think i secretly like it, sometimes. a little sick in my mind i know, but i guess school's good in a way it makes the weekends much more anticipated and i'm always very excited about saturdays :) i hate sundays the most, because i cant help but feel the monday blues on sunday itself which sucks.

haha anyway, its already thursday tmr! besides the fact that the final exams are gonna be here in a month's time. shit.

when i woke up this morning, i was contemplating whether i should go school for that one pathetic stats lecture. so while showering, i have finally decided to head school so that i can guiltlessly skip school on friday. packed my bag and laptop, planning to study in school with the rest after lessons. and on my way to school, i felt really proud of myself for going school:) but, my slippers had to give way, and broke! omg, i really felt like cursing which of course i didnt, and trotted unglam-ly home. luckily, i was only less than 20m away from home. i dont like the idea of rushing home to change, and rushing all the way to school, since i was already about to be late. so what i did when i went home, explained to my mum what happened, texted wen, yan and shaun and hit the bed immediately HAHA.

O's have started; i feel so nervous for my sister. i hope her efforts can pay off and i think i sounded like some anxious parent over the goodluck sms-es i sent her while i was in school yesterday. and hope my students can do well :)

i'm finally done with my report, way before time for once and i'm happy for that :) okay its time to stop procrastinating and get some mega tutorials done.

Lust, Caution last night wasnt as fantastic as how many put it to be. and ter and i kinda have some difficulties understanding the entire plot due to the chim chinese they were blabbering. haha and i was acting smart trying to explain to him when i myself dont really understand the movie, but its okay, i thought it was quite impressive for an asian movie :) after movie was supper at maxwell at around 12 midnight! we ordered so much food though we werent particularly hungry, but the food was great! well, in all, i really had fun with ter last night! finally no stress for my essay and assignments, though there's stil another idiotic report waiting for me to start.

anyway, lots of drama has been happening in school amongst my friends. it brought some of us closer, while distancing from some other person. some are really bothered; some dont really care(ppl like me, HAHA!). i guess these circumstances are in preparation to make us see the reality of the working world. saying this, i'm feeling really old now; i hate growing up. and i think i should just start enjoy studying before i have to start working.

last saturday at chris's new place was fantastic. the new house was really really great, i secretly wished it was mine. the new decor and furnishings make you just wanna lay back and enjoy the rest of your life. if only i can have such a house for retirement haha. all in all, i'm really impressed and the house's really really nice :)

anyway we tried to celebrate Roy's birthday as well, oh well, as usual, we score A+ for discretion HAHA. it was fun gathering together with chompchomp before that and stuffing of heavenly venezia down our throats while attempting to watch Secret. anyway i thought the ending was really quite crappy but thats besides the point. my last weekend was really great :)

okay some photos, but i doubt these shots are sufficient to capture the atmosphere of the entire house.

and friday was out with the VJ classmates! it was great seeing all of them again after so long and those people didnt change much. well maybe just chingkai, who have became less of a joker and more serious. see thats what army does to guys, but its still fun reminiscing about the good ole VJ days tgt :) and on my way home, i was just thinking i never knew i was this attached to these people in school, and now that we are all on our seperate paths, things just seem so much more appreciative. i really miss VJ loads, and even times like studying at the scrabble board with jing and joel :)

anyway, i really happy to say that i have finally completed my 2000word essay which is due tmr. i have spent so much effort on it, and i really hope my efforts will pay off. i really love this sociology module that i'm doing now, but sadly i'm not in FASS. sociology tutorials always left me feeling wiser than ever, as though i fully know how this state functions. the skills we learn are so powerful, it allows us to think so deeply and understand some of the hidden underlying aims this control. and most importantly, it made me understand singapore from another light, so much so i think i may contemplate to leave this place for good. its so cool i tell you, i feel like changing my course HAHA. and i guess this is probably the only module i'll enjoy taking throughout these few years in nus.

alright ive been so lagged with my school work for these past weeks, and i seriously better start catching up before the semester comes to an end :)

i hate composing an essay, and realising my contents werent suitable and hence rewriting it all over again. you know, right now, i really dread switching on my laptop. i can even hate it, work suckssssssss.

i have been having random hatreds nowadays. efff.

SOCIOLOGICAL IMAGINATION.
i'm gonna conquer you.
i'm still trying to put myself in ***'s shoes.
i think i can be a politician already hahaha.

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anyway my mum woke me up this morning for school, to tell her that i'm too tired, i'm skipping school. and then i rolled back to sleep. so this week, i have only attended 2 days of school. i'm so horrid, i want to slap myself silly. i'll buck up, i will i will i willlllllll.

YAY meeting the VJ classmates later, people whom I havent seen them in a gazillion years haha! and probably supper with the usuals at the airport :)

I'm so excited about all the plans lined up this weekend; too bad, studies.

School felt really fun today. Lab lesson was cool, though it was stuffy, hot and as usual, lijun and i were complaining how hungry we were. guess uni's just very different from what we had back in sec school and jc, its like you are given the lab manual, and without much explanation of what's to be done, you are just left alone to figure everything out yourself. independent learning process i guess. we were just talking (while waiting for the damn crystals to appear), about how fortunate we were back then, unlike now when there's no spoon-feeding anymore and we really need some brains to do the experiments. but i guess its still worthwhile, i mean we get to use really weird apparatus we never seen before, like instead of normal filtering apparatus (the filter funnel, paper and testtube), we got to learn to use the suction vacuum filter.

then it was gossiping with xy and getting distracted by the stuff in nadiah's macbook during chem lecture. i think we really wasted our entire 1.5h there laughing and giggling, and because of that its one more webcast to watch added to my longlonglong list of number of webcasts to be viewed. so, i have decided to pay attention for my calculus lect after that, but, unfortunately, that didnt happen as well. i sat beside Sookun and i cant believe we talked throughout the entire lecture, reminiscing about the japan trip, gossiping about the tk politics and laughing about the dumb 'secretive' things we did back in tk. we didnt pay any attention at all, and by the end of it, Alan was so taken aback by just how much girls can talk :) i wish school's like this everyday!

anyway midterms are finally over! not hoping too much, except to pass everything haha. reports are done, and now i got to really catch up on my shitload of backdated work :( tonnes of webcasts to be watched, millions of undone tutorials to be at least, printed from ivle, readings to be done for my sociology module, midterm essay to be completed and alot of other stuff :( though there're so much work, i'm feeling happy now, because its already friday tmr, and the weekend's officially here! i cant wait to enjoy myself thoroughly this weekend, without worrying about midterms and other academic nonsense.

oh oh and i met up with jing yesterday to lunch at engine fac, and we took close to half an hour, trying to hunt down that particular bubble tea store under the hot sun. we asked around and even the engine students dont know that there's such a store in their school. so when we finally found it after trekking up and down infinite number of steps, we were told the pearls were sold out :( so instead of bubbletea, we had like jellytea, which to me, tasted like liquid hairspray. yuckkkkkkkks. indo food at technoedge was comparable to that at the ps foodcourt:) yay meeting up again next wed, together with stellawoolala!

alright i got to go, been slacking too much. and i think i'm back to how i was like in VJ, i can see the VJ academic history happening AGAIN. this is bad and i shall start doing something about it, or at least try to i guess.

hmm, i think i get how realistic the world can get sometimes. like when the going gets tough, there're bound to be people who're unwilling to share stuff they have like how they used to. and does a person's background really determine his/her superioriy/inferiority? so many assumptions made, but thats what human nature is about.
ignorance is bliss :)

omg i really hate exams ): but its okay, last paper on wednesday.

have been studying for this entire week but which I have of course slacked towards the end, and after yesterday's paper, everyone headed to town for some liberation haha! actually i just realised, its only recently that I felt I'm finally settled for school. I dont dread mondays as much as before and I look forward to see my friends in school. heh i know i suck at adapting, because the semester's ending in approx 7 weeks, and it will finally be holidays! finally a break from everything in school.

the past week felt especially long, though each individual day passed extremely fast to me. met up with ter for dinner in town last night, it was good just being able to spend time with him and talking about everything under the stars, literally.

met up with chris and roy for breakfast this morning (: talked abit about the VJ days, and I guess those were really the bestest time of my life so far. Uni life's looking up, even though the stress is inevitably there. YAY i'm just looking forward to the next sat! chilling at chris's new place (:

My eyes are so tired now, I have been staring at this screen for almost the entire afternoon, rushing my essay. school tmr? probably not haha :)

I had my Calculus paper today, and I guess I'm pretty screwed. Not surprisingly, I felt as if I have just taken any other VJ paper. and if you know, this feeling sucks so bad. I dont wanna study anymore :(

haha i have no idea why I'm doing online now, maybe cause I realised this will probably be the best time to just blog about my birthday, before all the disgusting papers and everything starts. oh well, anyway I was saying how different I felt for this birthday. Somehow, it just made me realised how blessed I'm, when there are good ole friends calling you, simply just to wish you a happy birthday :D

Wanjie gave me a surprise call from Melbourne, and yeah, after that call I was feeling really nostalgic about the lower sec days. haha and it seems like I have already forgotten about lots of stuff that had happened, like those stuff we play about whenever we were at Stella's.


Steamboat dinner on Thursday night with the family in advance :) Food was good, and glad everyone enjoyed the dinner as much as I do. and my Mom said my face became rounder HAHA. not good i suppose.


Friday night was spent with the school mates to celebrate Alan's and my birthday :) Really thankful to Joy for organising this dinner and hope we can have such outings more often, I mean bseides meeting up for classes and canteen. It was fun hanging out with them :)


Saturday was spent with the usuals, pigging out on black pepper and chilli crabs! It was damn delicious, yummy. And after that we headed to Ter's house to just slack and chill, which of course, I had a surprise celebration again HAHA. Its nice just chilling out at someone's house instead of roaming around on the streets with no agenda in mind. then it was supper at cartel in siglap, and we were commenting how siglap brings back VJ memories, especially like the RESULTS day :S i liked how i felt on saturday, like how i managed to put everything else at the back burner and just have fun :)

Sunday night was birthday dinner for my grandfather at some restaurant :) Funny things happen, and it was an enjoyable night with the entire Chan family. But it hurts to see my grandfather struggling to walk as well as before. and it made me realised, he has really aged alot :( sometimes, i really wish i have spent enough time with him before i dont have any chance to. nehh i shant be so morbid. but besides that, it was great fun chatting with the cousins :) if only Kelvin was there, things will be even more funny HAHA.

well anyway, I'm about to doze off already. So right now, I better get going and close my opened-but-untouched Stewart Calculus. I'm really screwed big time for wednesday's paper, I'm so scared I feel like crying sleeping HAHA. I WILL study tomorrow, I better be haha.

I like this picture, its so cute isnt it?

Thank you for every single thing you have done for me :)