I'm tired; physically and mentally tired from school.
And tons of work are piling, killing me.

I want to rest now but there's so much noise going on outside.
Sometimes I really hate where I am and what I have.
So emo, I'll remove this soon.

Just got home from a visit to the vet with lina the doggie. I thought of just updating this space for now since I dont think I will have the time to do it after this week:( Lab's gna start tmr and I'm dreading it and complaining about it like mad. The thought of it is just going to ruin my day:(

Had phy test yesterday and I dont know what came over me, I kinda screwed it up. Like the prof was just going through the question and when the exact same question came out for the test, I decided to act smart and do something else (partly cause I cant remember how to do it haha). How intelligent. Then as I was walking home in the slight drizzle, I thought of ter. Of how he once said 'smart then smart, dont act smart' (direct translation from hokkien) to his mum and that made me smiled.

I'm sick of school. I wanna just stay at home and rot. I miss the holidays. I miss you.

When's 25th Sept coming? It feels like ages though its been only less than a week. Come back come back, I have lots to tell you!

I finally got my ass down to wrap up my org book because I really need to start reading up on all my lectures. Been really lost during lects ever since school started and I know thats cause I have been trying my best to spend whatever time left I had with ter. The past 2 days were spent with him wholly and we really enjoyed ourselves. Parting was... loserish on my part because I still teared last night even though I made a little pact with myself and tried really hard to fight back my tears. Now I'm really convinced I'm emotional.

He left today and I didnt send him off at the airport though it was an afternoon flight. I didnt send him off when he enlisted into tekong last jan either and the reason is because I dont think I have enough courage to watch him go right in front of everybody. Quite a weakling haha. I sat through my lectures from 8-6, having breaks occasionally. Friends were there for good company and their presence really helped to take some things off my mind.

You know I'm missing you alot right now.
:(

Surprisingly, school was really not bad today. Anat bright and early after breakfast with kj, then it was PC which was really slack because all we did was to watch indiana jones and star wars and it only lasted for 40mins! Lunch, org lect, which's still a mad rush throughout and we really do have problems catching up :( Followed by a 2hrs break, so we had tea time and at the same time, gossip a whole lot. Ended the day off with Phy which was really demoralising. I think I need to start bucking up, and kj has got meall of us stressed, big time:(

I went home with nad and it was a good chat on our way back. I think she's so funny to talk to so fun:)

My eyes are tired from the tv since I got home and I need to hit the sacks about soon.

I actually have a lot to say but I cant remember anything now. Till the next time then!

And its exactly a week more to go.

School has started but I'm totally not in the mood to head to sch, totally not looking forward to lectures. School on Monday was abrupt, because I was still out till wee hours on sunday night and only then I realised I have notes to print and I was dead tired and a little under the weather. 8-6 in school on Monday and it really was a killer for kj and i. And its 8-6 tomorrow again:(
School's depressing though its still so slack.

I showed ter the sad blog, told him my worries and he understood. We hung out last night till late, strolled to icecream chef to find out it was closed so we decided to head to siglap hk cafe for mango pomelo dessert. We talked alot, about our lives, friends, parents and future.
I'm really going to miss him alot when he wont be around for 5 weeks:(

8more days to go.

An entire saturday spent at home because
1. I woke up really late
2. _____ were killing me
3. Felt the need to spend time with family and Lina
4. Basically just feeling unwell the whole day

):

I was chatting online with xiaoyan and I think I'll miss her the most when sch starts since we are already on different paths ): Shared some stuff and I'm happy for her. Will be sharing a locker with her in school and I think that'll be cool.

EPC class starts tmr. Good and easy money rolling in, but its still tuition afterall. I still dont know what I'm supposed to be doing so I am just gna pray hard everything goes fine tmr. And meeting ter after that.

The days are counting down themselves.
12 more days.
):

I woke up really early in the morning to send my sister to school and then back home to chill before setting out for a jog bright and early in the morning. Its been some time since I last jogged in the morning and I do feel fresher after morning jogs as compared to evening jogs. Probably because there are lesser cars on the roads and the air feels a tad more chilly than in the evening. Did my usual jogging routine and half jogged/walked to the newly opened ACC. I explored the place, checked out the mega pools and the gym before strolling home. You know, after checking out the place, I feel so motivated to keep fit again just like how it was like during the after A's period. Its hard to get exercising started but I guess once its a routine, it just comes naturally and I no longer dread exercising as much though the inertia's still there at times haha. Anyway, as I was walking back home, I passed by NCPS and I took a really slow walk, just so I can see the primary school kids playing on the field during their recess, or so I guess. The kids were really bubbly, boys playing soccer, basketball team having their training and some classes were having the PE period. I feel happy looking at such lively kids which made me feel really glad I took up the teaching award. I think kids help to make me feel younger and really, I'm quite looking forward to the day where I will be taking up the teaching role in school. I guess facing kids/teenagers everyday is better than facing, more often than not, blackfaced collegues/bosses all the time in the office. At this point in time, I dont think working in an office is my cup of tea. Not yet, maybe.

This practically summed up how my wednesday morning is like. Morning exercise serves as a mood lifter and I feel so calmed and happy now :) Mum just said to head to gym tmr morning with her, hope it'll be good!

It could have been better.
And after so much, I finally realised who are the true ones who will stand with you through your ups and downs.
Some are really just so different; like I was telling terence on the phone, perhaps its not meant to be afterall.
I do realise its getting tougher to find people who share similar thinking as you cause I had my fair share.
But its all good.
Cause its going to make me appreciate those close to me and just be glad to know I have them.
I thought back about our chilling times at the bars and starbucks and realised it definitely took more than fate for us to find each other and to share similar opinions most of the time.

And thats the usuals I'm talking about.
I'm beginning to understand jing's theory of 'all different but yet the same'.

I cant wait for timbre/iguana this friday!

Sis got me to read this blog and it was really sad; tears actually welled up in my eyes. Lots of feelings are overwhelming me right now and I just want to better appreciate the loved ones I have around me. I cant even imagine putting myself in her shoes.

Speaking of which, just 2 more weekends with each other before ter flies off the thailand for 5 weeks. We have talked about it since the time he knew it and suddenly, everything's happening. Honestly I'll be sad but glad he's going because its a good army experience afterall. I told him 'at least your army life wouldnt be in vain' and he gave me a 'are you kidding' face HAHA. I wont be depressed because I know he'll come back for sure and I really hope he'll take good care of himself and come back safely in one piece despite all the horrible trainings. He said now its not the time to be sad but instead, treasure the rest of the time we have left till the 21st. I know he hopes that I'll be strong and I'll because I dont want him to worry about me all the time when he's over there. School'll probably be draining and I'll be a busy bee so there's actually not much time to be depressed anyway. And more importantly, I know friends will definitely be there no matter what. So honestly there's nothing much to be moody about and 5 weeks will breeze past faster than expected. When he's back, it'll be end Sept and less than 2 months time, he'll be done with army! Something to rejoice about! After typing this entire paragraph, my heart feels more settled and I believe everything'll turn out fine :)

LOVE.