Had a really memorable 21st :) will be back to update in 2 weeks time!

I think...
its never good to know too much of anything.

And where am I going to find answers to these unanswered questions that are boiling inside me?

I think I really need a sign.

There's some things we don't talk about

Rather do without

And just hold the smile

I wish you knew.

Recess week is coming to an end. And, I'm pretty stressed out now by the many unchecked tasks in my organiser. On a sidenote, my birthday party was awesome! I'm really glad it turned out better than expected. This year's been a ride, and I hope everything good will begin from here on. I want to do a post on my party but I dont have the time! I'm feeling so unprepared for school all over again, main reason cause I had too much fun over the weekend.

There's so much I want to say but I have lost my ability to express. And some things... I think I really asked for them myself. Some days I wish I'm void of emotions. Then I wouldn't think, wouldn't ponder, wouldn't get upset.

Have been seeking solace in music lately. And actually I have always been. Just love how I can relate to some songs and vice versa. I love music; it really does wonders for me emotionally. Yet unfortunately, when some songs which used to hold sweet memories are on the playlist, I wished I didnt have the music on.

I apologize for all these random thoughts. I have been thinking a whole lot again recently. And maybe that explains the lethargy before lecture notes day by day.

Okay I really need to get my act up again. I really shouldnt let these thoughts rule my mind anymore. I have got no time to waste.

I'm going to wake up to a better day tmr :)

"i have been struggling for four years what some people struggle their entire lives with, being in love with someone you cant seem to be with. I have come to realize in these past four years, that love is not as hard as some people make it to be. When you are in the infinite state of infatuation, a feeling no word or emotion could ever come close to describing, you feel as though this life is worth living. And when you lose it, its unreal. Its a pain i cant describe. Every muscle in my body tenses and my heart pounds so hard i feel like it will kill me. The thing i have learned most, is that this pain proves to me that my heart and felt a happiness i may never feel again. I now know from my suffering that the time period in which i did feel this happiness was worth it. There are few moments in life in which i believe we find true happiness, a moment in which everything stands still and every emotion thought or worry is gone, and your a single soul floating in a world of ecstasy. Its a feeling i wouldnt trade for anything. There is no real conclusion to this, because its undescribable. I do know, that this pain i have felt, this feeling of hopelessness only shows me, i did once fall in love. And every ounce of faith in me, is devoted to the thought of reliving the happiness.

I will always have hope.
-anonymous"

Because things will never be the same;

I'M SO SLEEPY
but I have tons of things to read up on and do.
I'm in the midst of churning up a report single-handedly and I dont want to do it anymore:(

I met Mum and Sis for dinner today. Nice and cosy. Plus some grocery (junk food) shopping after that. And we're all hooked onto durian pancakes! I think my Mum's slowing evolving into my sis and I. No one knows, cause no one has seen how crazy my Sis and I are at home. Even my mum calls us crazy sometimes. But seems like today, she joined in the fun! I love my family, plus my cutesy Lina!

I have lab tmrrrrrrrrr. brrrrrrrrrr. But hey, its going to be a short one. Hoping to leave during lunch time and then I'll meet JJ for some mission. YAY oh YAY. and then its a weekend all over before the last school week prior to recess week. OH MY time has flown by and it feels like school has just started.

okay time to hit the sack. goodnight world. and hello to a better day tmr:)

After your heartless choice of walking away

And because I was feeling under the weather today, I ate a hell lot.

:(

Now, what comes to your mind first when you see a red sky?