i wish it could be my birthday everyday, so i will be able to feel so happy and blessed like yesterday :) birthday this year felt really special to me, and i really need to blog about it soon. but not now, cause i'm dying under a whole pile of work to be done, and i really think my mid term papers're screwed. will do a proper update soon, hopefully tonight :)

i was just reading through my previous entries in my blog and i realised ever since i went school, ive been blogging about, sad stuff. oh well, didnt mean to be that way, cuz there are fun times as well, but because of you know, human nature, i tend to dwell about depressed stuff too. anyway there are so many overdued photos to be uploaded but i'm really quite lazy, more like no time to do it. soon soon i promise, and the recess week is finally here! its finally a break from trekking uphills, slopes and stairs for a week and trying very hard to understand the foreign stuff i'm learning. dont feel like going school tmr again, but i think i should before this becomes a habit HEH. i watched my first webcast today, and i guess its rather effective, though i felt like dozing off staring at my laptop. i havent been exercising at all ever since school started, all the swimming, gyming and jogs are all diminished. i feel so unfit, though many a times i still pant like shit when i finally reach school. haha lets hope the hills and slopes in school will continue to keep me not so unfit :)

its dinner time yay!
lets persevere on, because we know things can only get better from here :)

things havent been going my way. sometimes i just wish i can give them all up and just sit back and watch the world go round. i was telling bryan, i wish i have more time for everything and saying this on behalf of all the army guys, he wish he can have more time for nothing at all. i'm so tired of uni life, and i can assure you the studying is not fun at all. if without my friends in school, i think i'll rather kill myself than to go school. its time to rush reports again, and i'm so sick of typing and typing and typing about, absolutely nonsense.

i wanna break free. i wanna just spend my time with you, just like how it was like long ago :(

I woke up this morning, and the first thing that came to my mind when I opened my eyes was 'Simeng's gone'. I tossed and turned in bed, just thinking about the scene at the departure hall last night. The parting was much easier than expected, but still whenever I look back to the fun times we shared together, I cant help but feel so sad. Oh well, I really hope everything'll go well for her there :)

"remember what we said, the starting is always the most difficult. Dont force yourself to adapt if you cant, because given some time, I'm sure things will surely work out for you. Life may seem tough, but just bear in mind, you're not alone mentally. The whole lot of us will always be here for you no matter what and lets look forward to December! Take really good care of yourself and study hard :) love. "

feeling a little down and extremely tired, I have decided not to go school today. I ought to, but simply not in the mood. So right now, I have to really start catching up with all my lectures and tutorials because I'm seriously lagging way behind already. and it doesnt help when the midterm papers are just 2 pathetic weeks away :(

I'm so glad today's over! I went for lecture, lab, tutorial and driving and i think i can just fall asleep right now. I think i'm screwing up my diet, havent ate a proper lunch till now. and i'm going to have a lunch cum dinner soon. not to mention I have been under the weather recently and I'm clearly not recovering. okay enough whining, I need to get my report and tutorials that are due tomorrow done. OMG i think i can just forget about sleeping tonight :(

I want a break, I want a Life.
its times like this, I look back, and really appreciated the fun-filled VJ school days.
I miss Elgin, Bryan and AngJinglin, I miss 05S28, every single one of them :(

Sometimes I just wish everything can be just like last year, even when we are dealing with the disgusting A's. Because right now, everything just seems so bad and seriously, I can totally feel the 'Nono's Life Sucks' at times. And it doesnt help when Ter is posted to some shitty job again while I'm still here struggling hard with all the stress.

and who said university life was supposedly better? Many of us really beg to differ.
the weekends are what that keeps me going.
I want my mid term break here right now, 2 more weeks!

will update something cheerier soon :(

I have been well, really busy the past week. Finally a rest today but thinking about all the assignments to be done, I'm feeling rather depressed. or should I say bothered, because I'm not really in the mood to make myself go through all the studying and readings just to do the damn tutorials, essays and online quizzes. I wish yesterday is here today, when I'm with the company, and its this weird sense of familiarity which made me feel so much more comforted about school. Sigh the sunday blues for the week ahead, totally feeling it man.

Anyway, I was really stunned by the birthday celebration for me by the usuals last night! haha it was so unexpected 'cause it was like almost a month earlier:) really like the esprit wallet they bought for them, thanks guys! but when I knew we were celebrating it last night so that sm will be able to join us, I suddenly felt a tinge of bitterness and sadness lingering inside me :( Another change I've yet to learn to handle, sigh I feel like I really cant handle and tackle changes. Like after all the transitions, I still feel like I have yet seen the real world and hence unable literally, take things as they come. I'm still trying though. I'm really going to miss sm so :( so not looking forward to the 13th:(

Photos up soon i hope, and till next week then.
Hope school will really be smooth sailing and I really really dont wanna go for classes late anymore. Its so embarrassing.
I miss everyone and particularly the company last night already:(

Its already 2nd Sept, and whatever happened to the supposedly decision made for my 2000words essay?
I wanna faint.