I just got back from my maternal family gathering and it was really nice meeting up admist our busy lives. It was really the highlight of the week, other than last night's brewerkz which was quite awesome as well. I really wished I am blogging the way I did last time, when details of outings were given and positive emotions were evident and included cause as you should realise by now, I only blog when I'm feeling overwhelmed/ think too much.

Today's gathering was really heartwarming. Guess it was nice to see everyone trying to open up and catch up:) Had an impromptu birthday celebrations for the august/september and october babies as well. Anddd... I had the worst nightmare at parallel parking. Hahahaha.

The night ended off with the cousins sitting in the house and watching our parents and grandma having hthts at the porch. Mum was talking most of the time, with tears rolling down almost everyone's face. I couldnt hear their conversations but I kind of figured what she was confiding in them. I saw their tears and my heart ached momentarily. I love my mum but sometimes I really hate myself for being such a lousy daughter. Really, but I'm trying. I want to be the one to stop her tears from rolling down anymore. But no matter what, we are going to press on together and be a happy family.

BAHHHHHH I'm just feeling a void in my heart now. The highlights of the week have been over so I guess its really time I start facing the fact that school's starting.

And because I looked through the photos, I realise you are not there anymore.