driving today was supposed to make me achieved and happy, but no because halfway through the lesson, i can already feel that my day is being crushed. all thanks to the super impatient and the please-look-at-me-when-i-talk instructor. seriously i felt like walking off in between but that will be damn dumb of me to waste my money and give that instructor free time. so i stayed on, obviously showing my discontent. he seemed to have sense it and tried to make things better by cracking some not-funny jokes. HAHA what a weirdo. i dont wanna get him anymoreeeeee

i could have gone swimming today when the sun's out bright and sunny, but no i chose to go yesterday when the sky was cloudy and gloomy. Life's always like this anyway, there's never a perfect circumstance.

that aside, YAY i'm going to have the famous pig trotters mee sua for dinner at kembangan after work tonight! i totally deserve it because i just had disgusting lunch yuckkkkks.

its weird but i like the feeling of waking up and realising i have nearly spent half my day sleeping and lazing in bed. and hence makes the rest of the day feels shorter and more bearable, especially if its one of the boring days. i have been doing that for the past few days and it feels goodddd. actually i have nothing much to blog about now because i havent done much, except to go shopping and spend more money. the month has barely started and i'm already thinking about my pay for july! haha i think the working world will really turn everyone into money-minded freaks. its already thursday and almost friday which means the weekend is here again! not very good because i have got quite some uni stuff to settle and decisions to make by tmr, its driving me nuts trying to rationalise every single choice. speaking of driving, i just realise i got lesson tmr. i feel like cancelling it again, but i vaguely remember the promise i made to myself, not to be lazy for the month of July. alright i shall not cancel, go and make myself feel good tmr!

i like talking to jing, okay more like i like listening to her, because whatever she said always seems all so familiar and i wonder why the same things always happen to both of us.

something weird (i realise my limited use of vocab, considering how many times 'weird' has already appeared in so many of my posts but heck) happened after tuition just now, and it made me understand never to judge a book by its cover but for this instance, it was never judge a person by appearance. does it warm your heart to have your students confiding in you?

i think this is my strange-st post by far because whatever i have said was far from coherence HAHA.

Medical checkup today at NUS was surprisingly quite enjoyable, maybe because i was with jing or just that some of the people we encounter are quite weird and blur and funny. and we head down for our favourite chippy at raffles city to talk and just shop around. didnt manage to buy anything today so we have decided to meet up tmr again :) YAY and i'm quite looking forward to it.

alright some teevee before i hit the bed!

this week, i have finally taken time off for myself to settle all the admin stuff and do abit of thinking and reflecting. so actually right now i'm feeling quite emotionally drained because of all the stuff that i thought through. dont worry friends, i'm not going through any crisis or whatsoever, i just feel like an emo being sometimes. to straighten out my thoughts and come to terms with myself. actually this post isnt making any sense and perhaps i'll probably remove it sometime soon when i feel better. i was clearing my inbox and browsing through the emails i received over these 2 years, when i was stil in VJ and realised how immature some of my thinkings were. rereading it makes me wanna laugh at myself but somehow i'm kinda having a mixed feeling right now. about what i'm not sure, though i know there're some things stuck in my mind for a very long period of time, like for perhaps a year or so. i really wanna tel you, but it just seems so inappropriate already. i know i'm being silly, but there are times i think of all our funny conversations when i cant get to sleep at night. stuff like you deny me as your best friend, then tell me i'm your closest friend and how the closest friend is closer to you than the best friend etc etc, those silly things that touched my heart. i'm sorry for everything, and i hope it isnt a dream to hope to revive that closeness we shared just last year. i gotta go, i hope tmr will mark the start of the happy days before the dismal school days start all over again.

last night when i was at parkway waiting, tons of memories came flooding back to my mind. that place indeed brought back many wonderful recollections, all the way since the tk days :) i think i'll miss the east when i have to travel to the west for the next few years.

anyway i was too overwhelmed by emotions last night. i guess the uncertainty has finally sunken in and to make things worse, theres not much time left when we already have so little time together. but i'm glad i'm convinced, that things wont be as bad as i think it'll be and at least i still have something to fall back on. i'm really thankful for that :)

okay time to pick myself up and do the neccessary!

move along, move along, like i know i will.

"My yesterdays are all boxed up and neatly put away

But every now and then you come to mind

Cause you were always waiting to be picked to play the game

But when your name was called, you found a place to hide

When you knew that I was always on your side"

The happy birthday girl.
Happy Birthday to you, Simeng!

Hope you had a blast on your 19th:)

so it was a night of joyous birthday celebration for sm at Brewerkz with the usuals on Saturday. Food wasnt really as fantastic this time round but i guess the company has greatly made up for it :)
still, i stuffed my face till i was so full and felt like puking after dinner haha.

All of us except the MIA Auch, Danny and Zy <3

haha this was a failed attempt of us against the scenic singapore river.

it was Minds at Boat Quay after dinner when we were supposed to walk to marina square. haha so much for suggesting to walk to aid digestion. guess it only got more fun towards the end because we were all so tired or perhaps high (from the alcohol at brewerkz?) and thus we were practically laughing at every non-funny things.

I really enjoyed myself last night :)

These friendships, hard to come by.