HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY, MY DEAR!

today started off badly, because i realised i stupidly missed the deadline to submit the tuition fees and had to trouble my parents to call up the bank and check with my cousin about the procedures. i felt so horrible because everything's last minute and i made my parents so frantic. but still, they settled everything for me and i really love them(:

so it was matriculation bright and early at NUS today. so finally, i have received my student card and ezlink. then it was meeting the mum to settle my tuition fees, giro form...etc. back home it was looking through all the different brouchures for notebooks with brother and i think i kind of decided to get the Fujitsu Lifebook though i was really quite tempted to get the super sleek Toshiba. so by the end of settling everything and complaining to my mum how irritating this system is, i realised i was having a headache. it was so bleh i really doubt i have the ability to make major and rational decisions without my parents and to take charge of my life in the future myself. and i thought i was quite independent. nehhhhhhhh

so right now, i dont even know if i'm going for SOW starting tmr because the ever so responsible OGL hasnt even reply me. i miss playing in the band, i think i'm going to join NUS wind symphony. talking to the seniors there about CORS made me feel more at ease but i'm still quite blur. sigh i may not attend the camp afterall because my work's not settled and theres still driving i need to go.

i need some curtard creams cookies to cheer me up now.

aiyaaaaa i really wished you were here.

i'm currently feeling very unsettled about the registration stuff for school. i dislike the way the system is run and this method of independent learning isnt exactly working very well for the majority. but i think this is called taking charge of your own life, which i dont think i'm doing it very well right now. hope everything will run smoothly tmr ahhhhhhhhhh.

today was spent baking blueberry muffins with the mum and a swim. i woke up this morning (that is if you still consider 11plus morning haha!) and i saw sunlight streaming through the blinds, like finally! it kind of made my day actually because i really miss the bigfatredorangehot ball up in the sky :) but it seemed to have disappear right now, and the sky is gloomy once again. aiyaaaa why like that.

reality check:
the days are beginning to countdown now. (NUS!)

zomg i dont know why i'm blogging now at this unearthly hour and i'm feeling so shagged after these 2 consecutive late nights out. but i guess i shall blog since i'm in the mood:)

anyway friday night has been really awesome. haha though the night started off with a rather weird combination of company but i'm glad everything ended off greatly and really thankful for the people present. it was great catching up with the juniors once more and the atmosphere kind of resembles the one at HK cafe the other time. the same old warm fuzzy feelings, conversations and people :D guess they are one of those few people i can foresee us just meeting up randomly for dinner no matter where we end up eventually. haha because with them i feel i can just be my crazy self and like super unglam (i mean since they have already seen the worst of me HAHA), just like how Vera threatened to blog about how i said p------ when my mouth's full of custard creams cookies!

HAHA as usual with sm, my camwhoring partner.

i'm so sorry, Vera. HAHA okay maybe not.

Both of them in the same polo, just different colours HAHA.

Saturday night was Simpsons with the army boys and i felt it was really quite good, at least the jokes are funny :) and so i realised that dinner was meant to wish the girls 'luck and prosperity' (haha! timothy is so funny!) for our uni years ahead, starting next week. really appreciate what they have done and it dawned upon me its probably the last weekend i will get to enjoy myself so much, with no worries about anything at all. though i'm looking forward to school, but right now i'm feeling sad that life's like this is gonna be over in just one week and i must get myself mentally prepared to face this new phase of life. the new school environment, cultures and the making-new-friends-all-over-again process.

so on the way home was basically reminiscing the good old VJ days and even the 'hardcore' studying times during disgusting A's. i guess its good to talk about it with friends sometimes, because at least you know you still have some company missing the school days together, if you get what i mean. its scary how another group of us, the girls are moving on to the next stage of our lives, the army boys specialising in the different units and sm going UK. then another 4 years or so, probably people like me will be already out in the workforce, slogging my guts out for $$$. how will things be like then? i feel so old again HAHA, but i've learnt to accept the fact that the 1st digit of my age will start with a '2' next year onwards! my random thoughts again :D

i miss the Awesomes and the army boys already.

bumping into familiar faces clad in VJ's pe shirt/uniform on the bus 43 after tuition has always been thoughts provoking.

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though the weather's been cooling recently, but it has been spoiling my plans. and i hate it when my plans for the day are ruined just because of the gloomy weather. but actually i know deep down i'm just trying to convince myself i'm not fickled haha.

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these few days has been pretty occupied doing alot of stuff. i didnt spend much time out, perhaps its good because from 6th august onwards i know i will be out most of the time, in school.

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i think i'm beginning to get excited about school, like finally. i look forward to the people i'll meet there, the lectures&tutorials, basically the anticipation of fresh school environment (which will probably die out when work starts to pile) HAHA. but even so, i'm EXCITED :D

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i have always been amazed by the fact how some scenerios/images/songs can really trigger some memories so strongly. so much so that i'll affected for at least a week. its as if listening to some song will cause the opening of emotional floodgates and thats when EMOtions overwhelms me, for days. i reckon thats why i'm getting a little afraid of reminiscing sometimes, maybe thats when i choose to keep myself busy and continue to carry these emotional baggages subconsciously. i wonder if i have really learnt to take it in my stride.

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anyway tmr's gonna be a busy day ahead! YAY i'm looking forward to camwhoring again! :)

A sunday night again. this weekend has been quite mundane, but its good, at least i got to spend more time with the family. today was basically about nothing except eating because i am going to work out next week starting tmr i think HAHA. well i'm bored but theres nothing to blog about anyway.

zzzz what a boring entry. and btw it sucks so much when you wanna buy something after contemplating for so long and only then, you realised its sold out. omgz i felt like killing myself and i was depressed for like 10minutes. and the sister didnt make things better by saying 'too bad'. AHHHHH 'sucks la', sounds familiar?

I watch you spin around in your highest heels

You are the best one, of the best ones

We all look like we feel

yesterday was so hectic but all fun. so i went to meet stella in town to apply for our tertiary ezlink card together and for a super filling lunch at crystal jade. we had a bowl of la mian each, couldnt finish and its only after we are done, we realised all other normal females shared just a bowl. after lunch was hunting around for school bags and clothes while i was entertaining her with stories. i'm glad i told her because she made me see things in another light and i kind of felt more settled. good old friends are still the best. thanks girl :)

it was then followed by a mad rush to tuition place and it was as if the caffeine effect from the previous night has worn off suddenly because i really felt like dying due to fatigue when i barely even started my lesson. it was so bad, i didnt even have the energy to bicker with the boys and i had to get Ray to buy me some teh bing to at least last through these 2 lessons. felt alot better during the second lesson after the caffeine intake. this is damn bad and i thought i was immune to caffeine. anyway i finally tried a donut from the donut factory, its rather disappointing because Krispy Kremes is still the IMBA. hope its really coming singapore!

haha i was too bored during class so i took a photo of these donuts!

then it was finally home to celebrate the dad's birthday! mum bought a mango cake (because she doesnt like chocolates, just like my sis while i'm a choco-fanatic haha) anyway it so happened that jeremychan had a nights out so we managed to take a complete family photo, inclusive of the little pet :)

HAHA we had to retake this photo a million times, okay maybe not because its either my mum's not happy with it or its myself not happy with how the front row smiles. i'm so mean but the initial shots reminded me of the 3 expressionless souls from the thai band on the presentation night. HAHA.

some sisters-loving :) haha dont ask me why i look like that in the last picture because i have no idea myself and i wonder why i have been taking so many unglam photos recently, though nothing can beat the 'unglam to the max' one at HK cafe :) woah just look at how much fattening food i've eaten in one day!

and i had to drag myself out of bed at ?!7am this morning just to get to NUS on time for the QET. intially i was dreading it but i felt better after eveything because i saw some familiar faces randomly, like SooKun. i'm glad i met her there because Bonnie was late like, very late. haha. anyway i think i'm falling sick, i cant believe i felt that the weather was so chilly and wore a sweater under the bright hot sun. and i having slight body aches now, i'm falling sick :( but i think its all in the mind. should i go for driving tmr?

i'm having a slight headache now and i feel as if i'm having a hangover from last night this morning. having coffee+tea for supper made me feel tired only at 5plus and thus almost sleeping at 6 because thats when the sister awakes for school. and it doesnt help having broken sleep throughout in this comfy rainy weather. alright i think shouldnt be complaining so much, at least i didnt have school today (:

anyway yesterday was the band presentation night which i have gone with Simone and Vera. and the only band i paid attention to was VJ because i find my mind drifting off when listening to others although i tried. oh well. so we went back to VJ to join the Awesomes for supper. food wasnt fantastic but the company was superb. like what Vera said, its a different feeling we get altogether, somehow only with this group of people. all the jokes, laughters and fun we had, IMBA. and the night ended quite quickly having 5 of us sharing a cab haha. I have had a great time last night and hope we will have more times like this (:

Simone+Vera at SCH
Simone+Me+Benny in VJ. ahhh.

Sidney,Me,Vera,Benny,Simone (:

even though i was feeling physically quite shagged when i reached home, i still called jing. i think i scared her because it was at 2am and i sounded so neh. talked for almost an hour until i was feeling better so i decide to force myself to sleep because i have a long day today and tossing in bed and eventually drifting off to slumberland only at 6am.

alright i gotta go and get ready to meet stella the birthday girl in town, thn to the 2 long tuition classes, and back home to celebrate my dad's birthday. 18th july, what an eventful day (:

tell me WHY.

it has been a busy weekend :D celebrated jiejun's belated birthday last night at Astons in Katong. food was good but below our expectations. walking back to parkway with the group made me nostalgic all over again. suddenly i can just imagine how we are in our VJ uniforms standing in front of the Don Pie club as usual contemplating what to eat after band. haha and how the random stoppings right smack in front of shops blocking the passageways irritate other people, those memories :) we got bored and ended up shopping, yes a group of girls and guys shopping for clothes together. its weird but quite cool i guess. legs got tired and ended up slacking at macs and fantasise about our '09 trip. i cant wait; though its like another 1plus more year to go before it materialise. Boo.

and i was on the phone late last night with Gladys when i was finally home. havent talk to her for ages and it felt good to catch up again. we talked about our JC lives and i realise we have alot to agree with each other. i so can understand what she is going through and how she feels totally.

this morning was dragging myself out of bed to meet the four for brunch in junction8. zomg i felt quite zombified during the bus ride and was like an hour late. and now i shall accompany the sister to compasspoint and get my famous amos nonuts. YUM :D

alright some pictures!

driving today was supposed to make me achieved and happy, but no because halfway through the lesson, i can already feel that my day is being crushed. all thanks to the super impatient and the please-look-at-me-when-i-talk instructor. seriously i felt like walking off in between but that will be damn dumb of me to waste my money and give that instructor free time. so i stayed on, obviously showing my discontent. he seemed to have sense it and tried to make things better by cracking some not-funny jokes. HAHA what a weirdo. i dont wanna get him anymoreeeeee

i could have gone swimming today when the sun's out bright and sunny, but no i chose to go yesterday when the sky was cloudy and gloomy. Life's always like this anyway, there's never a perfect circumstance.

that aside, YAY i'm going to have the famous pig trotters mee sua for dinner at kembangan after work tonight! i totally deserve it because i just had disgusting lunch yuckkkkks.

its weird but i like the feeling of waking up and realising i have nearly spent half my day sleeping and lazing in bed. and hence makes the rest of the day feels shorter and more bearable, especially if its one of the boring days. i have been doing that for the past few days and it feels goodddd. actually i have nothing much to blog about now because i havent done much, except to go shopping and spend more money. the month has barely started and i'm already thinking about my pay for july! haha i think the working world will really turn everyone into money-minded freaks. its already thursday and almost friday which means the weekend is here again! not very good because i have got quite some uni stuff to settle and decisions to make by tmr, its driving me nuts trying to rationalise every single choice. speaking of driving, i just realise i got lesson tmr. i feel like cancelling it again, but i vaguely remember the promise i made to myself, not to be lazy for the month of July. alright i shall not cancel, go and make myself feel good tmr!

i like talking to jing, okay more like i like listening to her, because whatever she said always seems all so familiar and i wonder why the same things always happen to both of us.

something weird (i realise my limited use of vocab, considering how many times 'weird' has already appeared in so many of my posts but heck) happened after tuition just now, and it made me understand never to judge a book by its cover but for this instance, it was never judge a person by appearance. does it warm your heart to have your students confiding in you?

i think this is my strange-st post by far because whatever i have said was far from coherence HAHA.

Medical checkup today at NUS was surprisingly quite enjoyable, maybe because i was with jing or just that some of the people we encounter are quite weird and blur and funny. and we head down for our favourite chippy at raffles city to talk and just shop around. didnt manage to buy anything today so we have decided to meet up tmr again :) YAY and i'm quite looking forward to it.

alright some teevee before i hit the bed!

this week, i have finally taken time off for myself to settle all the admin stuff and do abit of thinking and reflecting. so actually right now i'm feeling quite emotionally drained because of all the stuff that i thought through. dont worry friends, i'm not going through any crisis or whatsoever, i just feel like an emo being sometimes. to straighten out my thoughts and come to terms with myself. actually this post isnt making any sense and perhaps i'll probably remove it sometime soon when i feel better. i was clearing my inbox and browsing through the emails i received over these 2 years, when i was stil in VJ and realised how immature some of my thinkings were. rereading it makes me wanna laugh at myself but somehow i'm kinda having a mixed feeling right now. about what i'm not sure, though i know there're some things stuck in my mind for a very long period of time, like for perhaps a year or so. i really wanna tel you, but it just seems so inappropriate already. i know i'm being silly, but there are times i think of all our funny conversations when i cant get to sleep at night. stuff like you deny me as your best friend, then tell me i'm your closest friend and how the closest friend is closer to you than the best friend etc etc, those silly things that touched my heart. i'm sorry for everything, and i hope it isnt a dream to hope to revive that closeness we shared just last year. i gotta go, i hope tmr will mark the start of the happy days before the dismal school days start all over again.

last night when i was at parkway waiting, tons of memories came flooding back to my mind. that place indeed brought back many wonderful recollections, all the way since the tk days :) i think i'll miss the east when i have to travel to the west for the next few years.

anyway i was too overwhelmed by emotions last night. i guess the uncertainty has finally sunken in and to make things worse, theres not much time left when we already have so little time together. but i'm glad i'm convinced, that things wont be as bad as i think it'll be and at least i still have something to fall back on. i'm really thankful for that :)

okay time to pick myself up and do the neccessary!

move along, move along, like i know i will.

"My yesterdays are all boxed up and neatly put away

But every now and then you come to mind

Cause you were always waiting to be picked to play the game

But when your name was called, you found a place to hide

When you knew that I was always on your side"

The happy birthday girl.
Happy Birthday to you, Simeng!

Hope you had a blast on your 19th:)

so it was a night of joyous birthday celebration for sm at Brewerkz with the usuals on Saturday. Food wasnt really as fantastic this time round but i guess the company has greatly made up for it :)
still, i stuffed my face till i was so full and felt like puking after dinner haha.

All of us except the MIA Auch, Danny and Zy <3

haha this was a failed attempt of us against the scenic singapore river.

it was Minds at Boat Quay after dinner when we were supposed to walk to marina square. haha so much for suggesting to walk to aid digestion. guess it only got more fun towards the end because we were all so tired or perhaps high (from the alcohol at brewerkz?) and thus we were practically laughing at every non-funny things.

I really enjoyed myself last night :)

These friendships, hard to come by.